someone up there seems determined for me to enjoy this holidays and not get work.

BAH.

i really wonder if i made the right decision to stay in Singapore instead of going overseas.

BAH.

how different will i be?

guess i'll nv know.

sometimes i feel damn helpless. everyone stop being emo can or not? then i dunnit to think of how to help u guys oso. and i dunnit worry for you guys.

ok dawn is gonna revive this blog. erm. for the holidays at least. cant promise i will continue!

ANYWAY. yes today i feel blessed. haha. cause so many pple remember my birthday! =) woots! thanks many many for all you have done for me in one way or another! thanks to all who left facebook msgs to wish me happy birthday! u really flooded my inbox with all your wishes!

and of course not forgetting those smses! haha. made me feel super popular today! haha. cause alot of SMSES! ESP THE OVERSEAS ONE. SUPER GAN DONG! my god u rmb my birthday even when u r overseas! I SALUTE YOU!

and CALLS! haha. though i dun really like to talk on the phone! but calls feel damn good! like someone call u to wish u happy birthday!!

and SURPRISES! gosh. trace ongying ming appearing at 11+ was the shocker of the century. i was like slacking and watching kang xi then they call me down. ming with her stupid excuse that she dropped her wallet in my swimming pool! HAHA. and ming i really want my wish to come true! so make sure it does K! then hall pple. gave me shock number 2! thanks thanks to all who came and celebrated my birthday! =) super duper touched!

and of course the 1 email that i got from someone in beijing! ok reply u soon ya! =) dun emo already stay happy!

thus ends my birthday. and im 20. wonder how long i can go on being my crazy self before i have to become ZHEN JING? hahahaa.

why does it always have to end up this way. its not the first time, and i believe it's not likely to be the last.

bah. its like im watching how the same show is going to unfold again.

i hate re-runs.

sometimes all you want is a shoulder to lean on.

sometimes all you want is for someone to hear you out. all your sorrow, your frustrations, your ideals, your thoughts.

sometimes all you want is for someone to be there just for you.

sometimes you can be a pain in the ass you know.

i can't believe you actually did that to a friend. how can you be so freaking selfish?


you just freaking piss me off sometimes. bah.