01:38
Monday 19 January 2009
omg. its only january and i feel as though i have done so many things! there was the madness trainings for cheerleading, going to the zoo, presenting fm tutorial. all in 2 wks! and now with a blink of the eye its going to be chinese new year! yay! =) chinese new year rocks. bak kwa, prawn roll, pineapple tarts. FOOD FOOD AND MORE FOOD! not forgetting the most important character of all.... ANG BAO! haha.
update 1 by 1!
cheerleading.... ROCKS THE WORLD! during december i dreaded trainings like nobody's business. i wished i could skip every single trg so i could be in the comfort of my home instead. now i want it to come back! i wish we could train ALL YEAR ROUND (haha. just kidding!) trainings were definitely tiring, esp training everyday from 8pm to 4am+++. and after training you have all sorts of other things to do, like sewing this, making the mascot. and even w/o those you have to slack around, HTHT, and PLAY MAHJONG! haha. so i never got to slp until 6+? haha. i miss those days!
and i thot i would freak on stage, what with all the eyes watching me. in the end i ended up being so freaking high that xw said i looked ugly on stage. zomg. haha. everyone should get to experience it at least once. i felt so happy on stage. everyone was cheering, shouting, clapping for us. for once, NO STAGE FRIGHT, NO FEAR. JUST US PERFORMING FOR THE WORLD. it felt damn good. why can't every performance/presentation just be like that? CO performance was freaky, guides parade was just plain stressful, guitar syf was numbing. but CHEERLEADING ROCKS THE WORLD! haha. i'm going crazy. but u get what i mean!
and the zoo! haha. i love the zoo! went there on sat with shu and kl! will post pictures later. i took like dunno how many embarrassing photos with the bronze statues!
yay ok i hope this yr would be a yr of many new and interesting stuff! =)
17:04
Tuesday 6 January 2009
i m SO FREAKING PISSED today!
argh. to think i played fair. WTH. shouldn't have even bothered. i have just been plain stupid to think that you would have cared. ever bothered to care abt the word friends? or maybe it just doesn't matter eh? you freaking ASSHOLE. BLOODY IDIOT. you are just f-ed up.
today's lesson: NEVER ever play fair with assholes like you.
10:35
Monday 5 January 2009
sometimes i just dunno what to do.
take control of everything or leave things there to rot.
honestly i am a control freak sometimes. i just can't let things go.
doing everything yourself issnt right, but what if your partner(s) don't want to step up to the task?
should i just leave things to rot or just assume leadership?
argh.
and it complicates matters when u have to bother about the emotional as well as rational side to things.