sometimes i wonder why i am so silly. ba zi ji de re lian tie zai bie ren de leng pi ku shang (literal translation: place my hot face onto someones cold butt). if you dunno what it means then too bad i also dunno how to explain properly. not even sure if i got the phrase right.

anyway back to topic. sometimes you really wanna keep in contact with someone but its really difficult you know. like why must i always be the one who initiates conversations, meetups etc? just because i want to be friends with you more than you want to be friends with me? but if i don't make an effort to do so then the friendship will distant. but then again if your friend doesn't even bother does it mean the friendship is not worth it anymore? should we just let go of the friendship?

so confusing.

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my english standard has just drastically dropped. cant even write properly. this really sucks.